~embracing my fears~

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, Prosperity, & everything else this wonderful life has to give me!
• Fantastic friends & family who truly enhance the joy of living!
• Bella and her innocence!
• Matthew and his unconditional love he offers me everyday!
• All of you fabulous people in my life!
• Matthew for his tough love that brings me back to reality so often, thank you, I know I can be a huge challenge so often.
• Matthew patience with me being a huge challenge so often;)
• School going great!
• Facing my fear of being disapproved, worrying about what others think of me, my fear of being loved, and so many more. Promising Matthew to face them and deal with them!
• Matthew for making me realize that it was time to face and embrace them!
• Coming back to my lists and books!
• Awareness that I have gotten to far off track and that it is my own fault for everything that is happening in my life. I sent out the vibrations the universe did exactly as I asked it to.
• Shanan and her everlasting amazing friendship, I truly love & adore you!
• Everyday of my life that I am given the opportunity to live, breath, love, cry, laugh, and learn another day!
• Choosing to leave my job at the rehab center and go back to the bar so I have less stress and more time to focus on my school, therefore making sure I am set up for success!
• My incredible God!
• Love you all!

Catching Up!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, Prosperity, & so much more!
• An AWESOME weekend of scrapbooking & hanging out with my momma! Haven't done that in so long I really needed and enjoyed every minute of it, thanks to the worlds greatest mom ever! Love you!
• Coming home from class last night and being told to go into the bathroom relax and take me time. Walking into a hot bubble bath, a glass of wine, candles, and a love poem. I am loved!
• An incredible relationship with an amazing man filled with unconditional love, acceptance, and appreciation for both!
• GREAT kids!
• Bella and her constant reminder of how much she is growing!
• My parents, all 4 of them, who are definitely the worlds best ever!
• Seeing my family for an hour last weekend on my way back home from my weekend with mom. My niece & nephew are getting so big!
• My sisters & brother who are just fantastic and full of love for me!
• Fabulous friends like all of you!
• Shanan and her unconditional love & accepting friendship she gives me!
• Seeing Mesa briefly while I left a little "thank-you" for Shanan on my way home!
• Laughter
• Tears
• Openness
• Awareness
• You, you sexy thing!

Feeling

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, Prosperity, and so much more, today & everyday of my amazing life!
• Doing a list today, I have sent mini lists to some over texts lately but actually blogging is the best!
• Talking with Shanan last night, missing her, adoring her, loving her, admiring her, and so much more!
• Bella being home and having a great week with my parents down state while she had a break from school!
• Dinner last night with my parents and brother, I miss you guys so much and love you all unconditionally!
• Matthew for everything, cooking dinner so many nights, cleaning the house without hints, loving texts and voicemails throughout my days, welcoming & loving my family, supporting me emotionally and being patient with it, reassuring me that I am safe to accept and be open to his love, allowing me to grow, calling me out to awareness when needed, being my best friend, loving Bella, and so much more! Thank you!
• Catching up on lists and missing them all!
• The About Me email that went around!
• My incredibly awesome family, both sets of moms & dads are absolutely the best I truly could not ask for better parents!
• All three of the girls, I love each of them in their own unique ways, they are all fabulous!
• Matthew's mom & dad who are just wonderful & loving!
• Friends who are always there!
• Family who are always there!
• Knowing that I make a difference in my job!
• You!
• & so so much more!
• Love you all!

Time outs!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• A mini vacation / time out to Monroe with an agenda of only time with my family and Shanan!
• Laughter till our sides hurt the entire weekend, starting on the road the way down!
• My mom & dad treating us to dinner Saturday night and putting up with all of us kids mis behaving in Target afterwards!
• Cards with my mom & dad Friday night!
• A trip to my favorite home town orchard in Erie!
• MI State winning and U of M losing again! Love you baby!
• Scrabble with Shanan, Matthew, & Chris Saturday night!
• My brother giving up his bedroom to Matthew and I for the weekend!
• DanaDo spending Saturday with us!
• My mom getting up early to make coffee and breakfast for us all!
• My awesome over the top amazing family and how much I love them all, I truly enjoy weekends like this past one and even though they don't happen as often as we would all like we all still enjoy them at 100%!
• Bella having a great time to and being so well behaved a majority of the weekend!
• Stopping into my favorite Mexican spot, Carl's Hideaway, Friday on our way in for dinner! Them having karaoke, both Matthew & I singing, and watching him dance and laugh with Bella!
• Waking up to Shanan texting me this morning that she already missed me and it had only been a couple of hours!
• Talking with Jeff M for a little bit and being excited about our Rock climbing adventure in Oct. What an amazing inspiring group of people to be hanging out with the entire weekend!
• So much to be grateful for!
• Matthew & I deciding to join 2 of my Aunt's & Uncle's & my mom & dad to Vegas in March!
• Chats with my Grandma & Papa who always make me laugh & fell loved!
• A clean house & vehicle's!
• My Dad & Mom up here for taking care of Eve while we were gone!
• Love
• Laughter
• Friends
• Family
• You

Things that matter!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday to follow in my life!
• Getting to do my list again, 2 days in a row, woooohooooooo!
• A great day at work watching all of the clients and workers hang out, play games and enjoy one another's company like there were no differences between any of us!
• Happiness
• Laughter
• Letting go of the little stuff and deciding to focus only on the things that matter and are really worth focusing on!
• Bella starting kindergarten tomorrow and being soooo excited!
• Matthew, his awesomeness, his love for me and everyone around him, his heart, his passion, his patience, and so much more!
• One of the clients who had a scare last night being ok and back at home again!
• Communication!
• Family!
• Friends!
• You!

Catching Up!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• Sorting through endless amounts of emails, pictures, & lists! Thank you all of you who continued to send me lists knowing that eventually I would find the time to read and send one myself! Love you all!
• LOVING my job!
• Time with Shanan last weekend that did so much for the two of us! I love you so much and am beyond words grateful for the gift of you in my life!
• Time at the parks with Matthew & Bella, watching them play, laugh, love, & connect while I get my homework done.
• Matthew having the want, passion, & patience to teach and tutor me with my homework!
• Not allowing this semester to wear me thin, staying focused, and on top of all of my classes!
• Bella losing her very first tooth! She was so excited she had to call everyone! It was great!
• Matthew and our connection that allow us to love, live, be open, and enjoy throughout life at 100% together!
• My family reaffirming everyday how much they love and our grateful for Matthew in my life!
• Bella, her laughter, tears, innocence, and so much more!
• Spending time at the library with Bella!
• All of you amazing people and the gifts you are in my life!
• My AWESOME new house manager, I switched houses at work to a more medical based home and am loving it, our house manager is absolutely an amazing and inspiring women!
• Matthew and I working at the same house and loving it lots!
• Love you all!

Sunshiny Days!!!!!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity!
• Chatting briefly with one of my favorite SG's the incredible Michelle JT!
• Leaving my other favorite SG a voicemail and just feeling a little closer, Miss Shanan, sorry I missed you, love you lots, and will try again tomorrow?
• Bella's laughter and playing games last night just her & I!
• Matthew and our amazing connection that allows us to continue to grow together!
• Matthew's unconditional love, the way we can share with no judgements, the way we can be open and know it matters to the other, the way we love, our amazing girls, and everything else God has blessed us with!
• All of you and the gifts you are in my life!
• My fantastic job that allows me to make a difference in the lives of so many and know that it is appreciated!
• Enjoying the break from school and yet being excited to start back up again in to classes that are becoming more in depth with nursing!
• Taking a minute to do my list!
• Talking with my mom, the gift she is in my life, all that she does for me, and the amazing woman she is to me and our family! I love you mom & thank you so much for all that you do!
• Trusting that things will be handled and remembering that its easy!
• Rock Climbing in October!
• Making wise financial decisions that allow us to do that!
• Life
• Love
• Laughter
• God
• Friends
• Family
• You!

Finals....again!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity!
• Mathew having a job in the medical field and knowing that abundance is going to be here now more then ever!
• My amazing family and all that they are!
• Being done with classes on Thursday for 2 weeks before I go into Fall!
• Amazing, incredible, hot-shit, sister goddess!
• Shanan for always being there when I need you most!
• Michelle for always making sure I know I am loved!
• Torrent Falls & knowing that I have 2 road trips with Mathew & Shanan planned this fall!
• Awesome opportunities!
• My step mom healing soon and being back to 100% health!
• Leo and all the love he gives to his Ya-Ya sisters, you are such a gift to everyone in your life!
• Jill for her awesome accomplishment in school!
• Amy's over the freakin top fabulous kids & tye-dye!
• Sherry's love and dedication to healing Jim, a man we all love so dearly!
• Kari's guidance in my life even without knowing it!
• All of you and the incredible things I have learned and gained from each of you!
• Mathew & his unconditional love & passion for making me the happiest & luckiest woman alive, ever!
• The center and all that it stands for!
• Taking time to do a list!
• Bella and her growth!
• All three of the girls for reminding Mathew & I daily of all the gifts God has blessed us with in our lives!
• So much more......
• Much Love to all & miss you all soooooo much!

Gifts!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love & Prosperity in my life today & everyday!
• Taking a breather to do a list and send some emails!
• The following gifts in my life in no particular order:
• Bella
• Mathew
• Shanan
• DanaDo
• Mom & Dad Tolliver
• Dad & Rhonda
• Michelle JT
• Kenneth
• My Grandparents
• Email
• Cell Phones
• Internet
• My Job
• Ya-Ya's
• Ya-Ya brother! ;)
• Music
• Love
• Laughter
• Giggles
• Smile
• Honesty
• Gratitude lists
• Gratitude
• Sunshine
• Rain
• A cool summer breeze!
• Amazing weather!
• God, my father!
• And of course you!

Love you all!

Without freedom from the past, there is no freedom at all, because the mind is never new, fresh, innocent.
Krishnamurti

Taking a breath!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday of my life!
• Taking a breath and doing my list!
• Reading all of yours!
• Catching up on emails!
• Having Bella back home!
• DanaDo coming to stay with Mathew & I this week!
• Knowing that I will see Shanan on Sunday!
• Riding the four wheeler and dirt bike with Mathew & Shanan!
• Watching Shanan learn how to ride the dirt bike!
• Time with Family!
• Being home and back in my own bed!
• Gifts from Cali!
• Music!
• Loving my fabulous new job in a field I love, medicine!
• Amazing friends & family who mean the world to me!
• Mathew and the unconditional love he gives to me!
• Shanan, everything that she is to me and so much more!
• Email's with the incredible Michelle JT!
• Mathew's amazing artistic ability and all that he is doing around the house while I am at work & school!
• All of you!
• Much Love to all!

Ya-Ya's & SG's!!!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & always!
• Planting flowers and doing some yard work with Matthew, loving it when it is all done!
• The amazing thunderstorm waiting until we were done to water the flowers all for us!
• Talking with Bella & my Mom today, hearing how my Bella wanted to bring her mommy home a real live starfish she caught in the ocean yesterday, hey it matters to her! ;)
• Missing Bella and hearing how much she misses me as well!
• Finding time to do my list before class and clean out my emails!
• Chatting with Shanan briefly this morning!
• Hanging out last night with some old friends and having a great time!
• Matthew and his playfulness!
• Laughing and having a great time with Matthew at Cracker Barrel this morning for breakfast! Everyone around us looking at us like we were "that" couple! Loving it!
• Hearing that Stacy is coming to the Ya-Ya reunion!
• Mama Gena!
• All of my amazing Ya-Ya sister's & brother! (That means you amazing Leo!)
• Sister Goddess, (SG's), like Shanan & Michelle JT who are amazing and full of love!
• My AWESOME & AMAZING family for all they are!
• Each and everyone of you who make a huge difference in my life each and everyday even without knowing it, thank you & I love you all to the very bottom of my heart!

Happyu 4th of July!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday of my life!
• Talking & laughing with Shanan today as always enjoying that time with her!
• Shanan & our amazing connection with one another!
• Picturing her, Dean, Lisa, & their boys sharing laughter all night and morning last night!
• Cleaning the house today and having it done!
• Talking with Bella today and hearing her laughter! Missing her so much and knowing that she is having a great time and making lots of priceless memories with my family!
• Reading all of your lists!
• Enjoying the fireworks last night with Matthew & my family!
• A cookout today at my parents!
• Squeezing in time to do my list!
• All of you amazing people in my life!
• Matthew and his unconditional love!
• God!
• Freedom!
• Life!
• Love!
• Laughter!
• You!

Having it all!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & always!
• Matthew coming to the course initially for me then realizing later it was for not only me but for him & us as well!
• Matthew getting "its handled"!
• Shanan and everything that she is to me, I love you so much and am in debt with gratitude for you in my life!
• Shanan for being amazing to not only myself but my Matthew as well!
• Long, honest, open, talks the whole way home with Matthew!
• Dean & Vance what a dynamic duo, I love playing and connecting with the two of you this weekend!
• Milt & Mary Ellen for allowing all of us crazy people to invade their home even when they chose to stay at home!
• An extra night/day with Milt & Mary Ellen, enjoying wine on the porch listening to the waves crash against the seawall!
• Dean being Matthews angel & knowing that he was in great hands!
• Dean for telling me so much throughout the weekend how much he really liked Matthew!
• Missing and thinking of Michelle JT as the "TLC" pod late night swam and performed stunts in the waters of Lake Erie!
• Having my mom on the weekend with me and staying at the Miron's with us giving us extra connecting time this weekend!
• Shanan naming Dean "Papa Gena" and having many laughs come out of it!
• Finishing my Mama Gena book this afternoon and looking forward to another!
• My Mom, I honestly could not ask for a better one!
• Spending Monday at the Zoo with my Mom, DanaDo, Nathan, Bella, Charlie, & Matthew!
• An amazing graduation that gave me an ab workout from laughter!
• An incredible once again life changing experience this weekend full of life, love, tears, friendships, connections, & so much more!
• Waking up Monday morning to the lake. Matthew & I choosing to sleep on the porch Sunday night to get the full experience of the sunrise over the lake in the morning!
• Matthew, his willingness & want to make his life better, the unconditional love he gives to me, the undying support he offers, his love for my family & friends who are so important to my life, and our unbelievable connection & bond we share! I love you!
• Reading the lists from all who were on the weekend and being mentioned in many of them!
• Hearing that there is going to be a Ya-Ya reunion soon!
• Seeing so many from the center this weekend that I love and adore!
• Getting new tools and awareness as always after a weekend with amazing, life changing people!
• Bella missing me and loving her so much!
• Creating a kick ass life for myself
• All of you and the joys you bring into my life!
• Much Love to all!

Quick & Simple!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday!
• A count down with Shanan!
• Matthew coming to the course!
• Laughter, wine, tears, talks, & dancing with Matthew last night!
• An early day out of work to gather things for our trip down!
• My sister keeping Bella!
• TUT notes!
• Abraham quotes in my inbox!
• Making time to do my list!
• Reading all of your lists!
• My life that's full of gratitude!
• My amazing family and a mother who is always understanding, full of love, passes no judgements, and there when needed! Thank you!
• All of you!

Whatever you're thinking about is literally like planning a future event. When you're worrying, you are planning. When you're appreciating you are planning...What are you planning? ~Abraham Hicks

Simplicity

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday of my life!
• Finals and being done with yet another semester of school!
• Being forced to relax and deal with things last night as I learned I can not control everything in my life. Thank you universe!
• The course this weekend , and knowing it is going to happen just as it is meant to!
• Family
• Friends
• Doing my list!
• Life!
• Love!
• Bella!
• Matthew!
• Shanan!
• Laughter!
• You!

Support

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday of my life!
• Knowing that life can be "easy" no matter what others tell you. If you believe it to be true then it will be true & apply to you!
• Checking emails, catching up, reading lists, &doing mine!
• Support from Shanan and how awesome she is, I love you!
• Matthew and all that I am learning in our relationship!
• TLC for teaching me all that I know so far and for helping me see the wounded little child in others which REALLY helps me to be patient with them.
• Matthew for having a huge heart, buying the homeless man a coffee and doughnut, and yet still wanting to do more for him.
• Starting to watch Conversations With God the movie and knowing that even though I am far away from spiritual cinema Matthew & I can have our own at home!
• Holding the vision with Matthew & Barb for things to work out for him to be there with us this weekend!
• A great dinner with Matthew, Rhonda, my Dad, & Bella!
• All of you amazing people and gifts in my life!
• My incredible family!
• My awesome friends!
• Life
• Love
• You!

Rain!!!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• The refreshing storm we received early this morning that quenched the thirst of mother nature outside!
• Lying in bed with Matthew and listening to the thunder outside our window.
• Michelle's lists and her way of inspiring me through living her dream & determination!
• All of you and the amazing impacts you have on my life daily!
• Asking for what I want from Matthew and communicating to him what that looks like to me.
• Him being so willing to do things for me and so open to my views.
• Matthew watching What the Bleep do we know? and being so open to the possibilities the universe can provide to him!
• The course this weekend and Barb holding the vision with me for Matthew to be there.
• Matthew calling me out on things and raising my awareness levels!
• His unconditional love & support!
• Looking at options for Bella to help make our time together more enjoyable!
• Listening to Bella's laughter last night as she played in the water outside with the hose!
• Being home after a weekend full of activities!
• Shanan and how she never ceases to amaze me. I cried so much on the way home thinking of how blessed I am to have someone as amazing as you in my life. I am overwhelmed with gratitude for you & am so glad you know this!
• Laughing with Shanan on my way home about our 5 year plan to buy a large house duplex style and raise our families in it so that we never have to be apart!
• Matthew laughing at our plan, expressing that he believes the only two people capable of such an idea is Shanan & I!
• Matthew putting the power of manifesting into perspective and expressing that he feels very powerful about things in his life and the only things that scares him is when two people as powerful as Shanan & I join forces, who will win? :)
• Matthew handling things for me when I arrived home on Sunday, meeting me at the truck, handing me a glass of wine, and telling me to just go sit and relax while he unloaded everything.
• Our front porch routine of talking, laughter, & connection with one another!
• Attracting abundance in my life and trusting the universe so much to handle it!
• My "us" time with Shanan this weekend, lying in bed and just talking & supporting one another!
• Having fully aware "pissy teenager" time with Shanan over breakfast and laughing hysterically at how much all of our sub personalities are alike & join forces!
• My amazing grandparents and being there to watch them celebrate 50 years of unconditional love & marriage!
• My sister graduating from High School and how proud I am of her!
• Mama Gena, if you haven't read her yet so yourself a favor and do!
• Laughter
• Tears
• Happiness
• Family
• Friends
• All of you!
• Much Love!

Serenity

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• Choosing to take out time for me today, checking emails, doing my list, reading all of yours, & all the other ways to stay connected with all of you amazing people!
• Adding Barb, Matthew, & Travis to my glog recipients! Why I did not do this sooner is beyond me, so grateful I am blonde and so well known for it, this prevents hard feelings ;)!
• Mama Gena & Michelle JT for the introduction!
• Starting a brag email & other Mama Gena recommended emails with Shanan!
• Choices in life!
• The serenity prayer and how it seems to really calm me when I use it!
• Matthew making coffee this morning and giving me a back rub to go with it!
• Matthew our awareness with our relationship, our unconditional love for one another, our friendship, our amazing families, our desire to make the world a better place, our incredible daughters, our communication skills, our continued growth, our awareness, our ability to ask for what we want, our support for one another, our boundaries with one another, and I guess, well, just us! I love you babe!
• Talking with my Grandma last night for over an hour!
• Bella and seeing so much of me in her! Not sure if this is really a good thing or not, depends on her, I mean our, mood! ;)
• Matthew for never giving up and always going for what he wants in his life, creating it, holding a clear vision, and going against all odds!
• Going home to clean the house! I love the feeling afterwards of knowing it is done and "handled"!
• The amazing weather!
• Sitting on the porch last night in the silence reading Mam Gena in the perfect weather and listening to nature!
• All of you amazing people I have been blessed with in my life!
• Talking with Kathy, (Matt's mom), last night and loving how much both her and Dick, (his dad), love & support him. The gratitude she expresses to me for the simple things that I love to do anyhow, like love her amazing son!
• Life
• Love
• Tears
• Happiness
• Friends
• Family
• God
• All of you!
• Much love to you all!

Resistance is about believing that you are vulnerable or susceptible to something not wanted and holding a stance of protection, which only holds you in a place of not letting in the Well-being that would be there otherwise. There is nothing big enough to protect you from unwanted things -- and there are no unwanted things big enough to get into your experience. ~Abraham Hicks

Love

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• Remembering to just surrender over my control and trust that it things will be handled!
• An amazing day yesterday at my grandparents house.
• The love between my grandparents and having the chance to watch them re-confirm their love to one another at church during their 50th anniversary service.
• Still having my grandparents in my life!
• My Papa sending me home with 2 cases of homemade wine! Daddy Milton I am for sure saving some for you, I promise this time!
• My Grandma making a ho-ho cake for me, my favorite & grandma's speciality!
• A guest speaker at church who was so full of information, very interesting, and willing to teach others. Amazing amounts of new info and awareness received from a pastor who has struggled against his own country to become what he is today here in the U.S.
• A GORGEOUS day at lakes yesterday, (Michigan & Crystal), with Bella, Matthew, & my Papa!
• A nice talk on our ride home with Matthew about the speaker in church.
• Matthew and his faith in God which makes it so much easier for us to turn to one another when we are feeling weak.
• Shanan and her friendship
• Class today and feeling amazing afterwards!
• All of you and your awesomeness!
• My incredible family!
• Much Love!

Surrendering

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday of my life!
• Today being Friday!
• Talking last night with Matthew on the front porch for hours and just really allowing us to support one another,
• Allowing ourselves to feel!
• Expressing our wants, needs, and gratitude with the other!
• Bella and her innocence!
• Matthew and his passion for growth!
• Shanan and finally connecting briefly last night!
• An ok better then yesterday day at work today
• Awareness
• Choosing to surrender the little things and focus on the large
• Knowing that I do not have control over everything and that I can trust God who does to help me handle it!
• All of you incredible people in my life!
• Reading your lists!
• Love
• Happiness
• All of you

Thoughts!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• All of you amazing, wonderful , incredible, inspiring, blessings in my life! I love you all so much!
• Reading emails & lists, getting to do mine, and yet another questionnaire to stay connected with so many incredible people in my life!
• A message from Jeff M saying hello!
• A nice HOT summer day and knowing that it will be cooler tomorrow!
• More flowers to plant and look at!
• Lillie's! I love them all!
• Matthew and the love he gives to me daily!
• My new Mama Gena books, I found one for $5 on the bargain rack! WOOOHOO!
• Shanan and our emails that are becoming a daily routine!
• Bella being in a good mood today!
• Getting some things out with my Dad that have been bothering me for quite some time!
• Class today and watching the interaction between many different types of relationships that have been together for over 5o years! Learning from them and loving their interactions with one another!
• Talking with Matthew's mom today on my way to go pick him up, wishing her a Happy Birthday, her telling me how much she appreciated me calling her and loving Matthew, hearing about their vacation and just loving the connection.
• Matthew offering to help me through a class so that I can skip the basic and go to the advanced!
• Finding two quotes that I could not choose between to add to the bottom of my list and deciding to just do them both!
• Thinking and expanding my awareness!
• Things that keep me thinking and wondering throughout my days!
• Options & Boundaries
• Love
• Happiness
• Life
• Friends
• Family
• All of you!
• Much Love!

You can't do anything about the length of your life, but you can do something about its width and depth.
Evan Esar (1899 - 1995)

Pain (any pain--emotional, physical, mental) has a message. The information it has about our life can be remarkably specific, but it usually falls into one of two categories: "We would be more alive if we did more of this," and, "Life would be more lovely if we did less of that." Once we get the pain's message, and follow its advice, the pain goes away.
Peter McWilliams, Life 101

Contentment

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday of my life!
• All of you and the incredible blessings you are to me!
• Laughing and talking on the phone last night with my mom & grandma!
• Matthew being a huge gift and treasure in my life!
• Bella and all that she is teaching me through love!
• My friend Candy being back at work and knowing that I have someone who will always speak their mind right beside me!
• Deciding to go buy roller blades and get back into shape at full speed!
• Making a brief connection with Jeff M this morning! I miss you!
• Shanan and our unexplainable connection to one another!
• My incredible family!
• Having time at work today to do my list and catch up on all of yours!
• Matthew cleaning the house, doing the laundry, and writing me a love note yesterday all while I was at work!
• The gratitude that Matthew and I feel for each other!
• The opportunities I have been blessed with in my life!
• Chatting with Barb last night for awhile!
• Love
• Happiness
• Tears
• Awareness
• Check In's
• Family
• Friends
• Boundaries
• All of you!
• Much love!

Love

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday in my life!
• Deciding to stay home from everything yesterday and just spend the day with Matthew!
• Getting A - LOT of yard work done yesterday with the perfect balance of "me" time and "us" time!
• Laughing/playing/ & flirting with Matthew using the water hose while we were supposed to be "working" in the yard!
• Seeing a huge difference and the two of us committing to having it done by the end of this month!
• Spending Sunday with Matthew's family, loving, them ,feeling, 100% accepted & loved by them, and just relaxing with them. Connection!
• Reading Michelle's list and being inspired and happy for her!
• Feeling the unconditional love between Michelle & Craig for one another, knowing that it exists and that I may have found all that I have admired between them for so long!
• Talking with my family last night over the phone for an hour!
• Technology and how it allows us to all stay connected!
• Matthew's girls and how close we are becoming!
• His entire family and all of us lying around the family room watching movies Sunday evening after dinner, feeling overwhelmed happiness and contentment!
• Watching movies & cuddling Sunday night more after we took his girls home and went home ourselves!
• Matthew getting up this morning while I was getting ready and making coffee even though he did not have to be up at all this morning!
• All of the little things that we appreciate the other one doing for us!
• Our communication and connectedness!
• Playing phone tag with Shanan yet knowing that we have a bond and are always thinking, supporting, loving, and missing each other!
• Bella expressing how much she missed Matthew & I while she was at her dad's and that she loves us both.
• My dad (Dana), expressing how he enjoys reading my lists while he is at work!
• All of you and the amazing blessings you all are in my life!
• Love you all!

Perfect Relaxation & Time!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity in my life today & always!
• Matthew trying to sneak in the bathroom this morning while I was in the shower to leave my coffee that he made for me on the counter!
• A good dinner last night and relaxing afterwards with Matthew & the girls.
• Taking my "me" time last night that I have promised Matthew & Shanan that I would do. Enjoying a glass of wine on the front porch during the perfect nighttime weather and reading some Louise Hay to center myself & do a check in. Amazing what all that can do!
• Having lots of "me" time today while Bella is at her dad's, Matthew's at work, & his girls are at his parents!
• Catching up on my list and all of yours during this time!
• No kids tonight and "us" time!
• Movies to watch together with all of us.
• Lunch with Matthews mom, dad, & his girls!
• Walking and spending some one on one time with his Dad in the flower garden and really connecting with him, usually this is the other way around Matthew is with his dad & I am with his mom!
• Matthew's parents expressing today how happy they are that Matthew has found me and we are so happy & perfect for one another.
• Them expressing their gratitude to me for loving & supporting Matthew in all of his decisions, helping him to see all sides of everything, and being there for him to lean on and celebrate with when needed!
• Matthews mom allowing me to borrow her Wayne Dyer book when she is done with it!
• Having an amazing man in my life who has an amazing family that is all so into personal growth & creating the lives they want!
• Fabulous friends like all of you who have helped me to achieve & create the amazing life I want!
• An incredible family who has supported, encouraged, loved, and joined me in creating the life that I want!
• Emailing with Shanan yesterday at work and being able to find one more way to connect and support each other whenever we need it!
• Synchronicity between Shanan and I and how we always seem to be thinking of the other at the exact same time!
• Shanan!
• Bella!
• Matthew!
• Ashley!
• Emily!
• Mom's!
• Dad's!
• Grandparent's!
• Music!
• Love!
• Happiness!
• Friendships!
• Family!
• You!
• Much Love to you all!

Being in love is so good for you. Often when people are newly in love, things that have been bothering them for a long time get better. Something wonderful is calling the majority of their attention, so they're holding themselves in a better vibrational place, so the stuff they've been wanting all along can now zoom in. ~ Abraham Hicks

Honesty

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & always!
• Matthew & I having our first disagreement which allowed us to see how the other truly does react when feeling frustrated, afraid, unheard, disrespected, unloved, angry, and so on. I believe we truly are perfect for one another this insight was amazing and very good for us both, we have great communication skills and where able to work through it all no problems!
• The feeling of unconditional love from an amazing man like Matthew!
• Awareness on my behavior & patience level with Bella, asking for help & support and receiving it!
• Matthew carrying my books and everything else in this morning including all of his, my coworkers seeing it and commenting later when I went to work after class about how spoiled & loved I am, not to mention that they were jealous!
• Bella and I having a good day together today!
• Stopping by Alan's to handle a few things, chatting, catching, up, and being very grateful for our friendship with one another.
• Alan asking me to put together some time for Matthew, myself, & him to hang out!
• The amazing connections I have with the incredible people in my life!
• Text messages from Matthew just to let me know he is thinking of me and loves me more then anything in the world!
• Chatting and laughing with Shanan last night about rabbit fur loin clothes;)
• Mesa being so open to make us homemade rabbit loin clothes! (disclaimer: no rabbit were hurt in the making of this list!)
• My amazingly incredible family and all the gifts and blessings they are in my life!
• Shanan for being so loving, supportive, non-judgemental, aware, amazing, and everything else in my life including the very best soul sister one could ever ask for!
• A surprise letter and gift from Michelle JT which brought tears of gratitude to my eyes! Thank you girl I love you so much and am truly blessed to have someone like you in my life!
• Getting to do my list and catch up on emails.
• Laughing as I create my list and realizing how much better I feel then I have lately!
• Shanan for helping me to see why I have been different and helping me to get past it and feel the fear!
• School and being on the fastest track comfortable for me to succeed in my goals!
• An amazing boss who works with me in helping to achieve those goals as well!
• Lots of laughter at work today!
• My sister Jen having safe travels to and from N Carolina!
• A fun, full of laughs, very informative, lecture today in class!
• All of you and your awesomeness!
• Love you all!

Family

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & everyday!
• Text messages that make me smile!
• Meeting Shanan's new friends Martin!
• My family seeing Shanan as another daughter!
• The universe delivering Shanan & I so much time together!
• Enjoying a FANTASTIC holiday weekend with my sister, family, & friends!
• Lunch yesterday with Matthew, his parents, & DanaDo!
• Cooking out with my mom, dad, brother, sister, Matthew, Shanan, & Martin!
• Having an amazing time with my family last night!
• Not setting a time limit to leave and just trusting that it will all be great!
• Playing elementary games with Shanan in the yard, 3 legged races, wheel barrel races, leap frog, crab races, etc..you know us there is no limit to what we will come up with next;)
• Matthew & Martin joining us on the wheel barrel race even though I am sure they were both wondering what kind of drugs the two of us where on!
• Jumping on the trampoline with my sister & brother!
• Dirt bikes & four wheelers!
• My incredible family!
• How well Matthew & I connect, love, and support each others families!
• An amazing, open, & honest talk all the way home with Matthew!
• Bella and her contagious laughter!
• Bella and the things she thinks that will instantly make you laugh regardless of the situation!
• Trusting the universe!
• Family
• Friends
• Laughter
• Love
• Tears
• Honesty
• Openness
• You
• Gratitude
• Much Love to all!

Laughter, Love, & good times!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today and everyday!
• My sister Dana staying with Matthew, Bella, & I until Monday!
• A great time with family in celebration of my amazing Bella and her graduation of preschool!
• My mom & dad who have always put there differences aside for mine & my sisters sake!
• My amazing step parents and the gifts they are in my life!
• Bella being absolutely adorable and much better behaved lately!
• Spending time with my niece & nephew!
• Matthew giving all of my family a hug goodbye!
• Ashley & Emily for expressing how grateful they are for me to be with their dad!
• Matthew for being amazing, loving, & 100% supportive of me, the life I choose, & everyone in it!
• Matthew for loving me unconditionally!
• Matthew for getting up and cooking breakfast for Bella, Dana, & Myself!
• DanaDo and they way she always finds a way to make me laugh!
• DanaDo for being such an amazing, loving, and extremely patient aunt to Bella!
• My freakin over the top fantastic family! I love you all!
• Shanan and all of the incredable things she has brought, created, and given to my life including an amazing everlasting friendship! I love you chick!
• Laughter
• Water
• Love
• Good times
• Being able to create my life
• Choice
• All of you
• Much Love!

Awareness

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity in my life today & always!
• The universe delivering an extra $100 to me this morning on a prepaid card that I know was down to $5 a few months ago and has not had any money added to it since then! ;)
• Finding way's to "handle" things, bills, and money, working with the universe and trusting that its all been handled! (See above note for proof of trust:)
• Shanan's amazing insight and intuition into my life. For always bringing me to the attention of things that I am not yet aware of. Saving me a lot of time, stress, and exhaustion from it. Thank you girl!
• An amazinzingly perfect Tiger's game with Matthew, Shanan, Mesa, Christine, Dennis, Merritt, & Tyson! Perfect weather, perfect universe for delivering such amazing opportunities during it, perfect friends to share it with, and a perfect win!
• Getting to sit behind home plate and spend some time in the Champions Club at the game, seeing so many more sides to the park then my usual seat of the 3rd baseline!
• Saturday being full of friends, family, good times, pictures, and new memories!
• Lunch with Matthew's sister on our way to Detroit at The Rainforest Cafe!
• Ice Cream and playing in the park with my mom, dad, sister's, brother, niece, and nephew before going to the game.
• Shanan riding to the game with Matthew and I, directing us through the shortcuts and keeping me calm in traffic!
• The bon-fire at Shanan's afterwards filled with lots of laughter, music, good times, & friends!
• Shanan being the perfect hostess!
• Mesa & Christine for being the perfect and understanding roommates!
• Breakfast with everyone at Big Boys! More laughter!
• Lying in bed with Matthew, Shanan, Dennis, Christine, & Myself! Mesa laughing and making fun of us all!
• Shanan for reminding me how luck I am to have Matthew in my life!
• Shanan & Matthew for reminding me to just "be in the moment" and not stress over Dwain's behavior.
• A ride down to pick up Bella with my Dad. Us chatting and bonding like we have not done in a very long time.
• My dad telling me how much he likes Matthew and how he sees us being a perfect fit for each other. This made me feel really well I usually have to ask for my dad's opinions so I loved him just sharing and putting it out there!
• Me time and finding ways to make it happen without sacrificing the things and people that I love!
• Doing my list and having so much to be grateful for!
• All of you amazing people in my life!
• Leo's lists and loving the amazing father he is to his kids! Healing my wounded little girl through them!
• Michelle for posting pictures up from camp!
• Bella calling to just say she loves me!
• Family
• Friends
• Laughter
• Tears
• Feelings
• Boundaries
• Awareness
• Love
• Happiness
• All of you!
• Much Love to all!

Hey!! There's not been a single day in your life when you've been anything but magnificent. Give this to yourself.
Every day you move mountains, touch lives, and perform miracles. Every day you're a success, a hero, an example. And every day you change the world...
~The Universe

Surrendering!

• Abundance of Faith, Hope, Love, & Prosperity today & always!
• Re-connecting with Leo's lists!
• All of your lists and glogs!
• My SOC exam today, not being aware of it until late last night, surrendering to the universe and believing that I am full prepared and that it will all be handled!
• Feeling like I scored well on my exam!
• The feeling of surrendering anything to large for me to handle to the universe and knowing that it will be handled perfectly!
• Feeling great yesterday and today after kickboxing class, knowing that my body is adjusting well to the workout and will benefit in huge ways!
• Shanan, I am missing you! Call me tonight when you get off work, I work until 4:15pm.
• Kari recovering well! We need you and your brain to much for anything less then a full recovery:)!
• Michelle realizing how awesome she is and how many lives she changes!
• Bella's sense of humor and "adult" way's of thinking and speaking whats on her mind! (I have no idea where she get's these things from;)
• Matt and I both having yesterday free after 2:30pm, being able to spend time with all 3 of the girls, and getting a lot of stuff done & handled!
• Matt for sweeping & moping the kitchen floor, taking, care of the girls, and allowing me to nap and take care of me.
• Catching up on my sleep finally from camp and feeling 100% better today!
• Doing my glog today and realizing how better I feel when doing so!
• Letters of recommendation for the Honor's Program and reading all of the compliments I received from co-workers and professors!
• Knowing that I am valued by many!
• Friends who are willing to take notes for me in class when I am unable to be there!
• Being able to do the same for friends!
• Friends & I not needing the same days off from class so that we are never screwed;)
• Resources that are available!
• Boundaries
• Awareness
• Love, unconditional!
• Friends
• Family
• God
• Laughter
• Tears
• Feelings
• All of you!
• Much Love to all!

Good judgement comes from experience. Experience comes from bad judgement. ~Unknown